Poise, Paws, Pause: Blogging Again!

March 18, 2014

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In the last while a few moments have been full of WIN:

  • making my own soap

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  • starting blogging again 🙂
  •  going out with some activist friends for some good eats and drinks
  • a kitten named Marble (My Son)

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In an attempt to combine the last few things (except the cat) I turned a word vomit post into a more refined blog post for momsrising.org, which I am nervous about.  It’s personal and about education, where I use my personal experiences with my daughter to criticize our addiction to standards.  Please let us not also standardize preschool. I’m not sure if I should include the ADHD/ Sensory Processing issues I think run in my family. Enough of that.

I need to get back on the meditation wagon. Ten minutes seems like forever, yet I used to be able to do 30.

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3 Keys to Being Happy, No Matter What Happens

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Leaf

June 23, 2012

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Warrior Wednesday: MIC

June 20, 2012

Soldiering on inside the Motherhood Industrial Complex (MIC). <It really brings new meaning to Mic Check> I got some good data yesterday to fuel a non-profit idea my neighbors and I are working on. Many thanks to the Push Out Prevention Project and Jason! My positive from yesterday was that I meditated for at least a half hour. I did skip karate when I thought I was going to go but I finished a massive grocery shopping trip during that time.


Poise, Paws, and Pause

June 19, 2012

Following Scattermom’s How to Laugh at Yourself series beginning, I thought I would write a post just like that. Next, I thought of the mess that was my last ‘laugh at yourself’ moment; it was also a ‘if I don’t laugh, I will cry’ moment. <punctuation is hard> Luckily, it was followed by a rather cleansing laugh at yourself moment…which was me wishing my dad Happy Birthday on Father’s Day! Oh, it was memorable. Later he called to make plans for our trip and I got to wish him Happy Birthday again! Plans, are hard to make for the technologically and memory challenged.

My laugh at myself moments are becoming overwhelmingly glaring. And, I have been skipping some meditation times. I keep telling myself it is because of the summer schedule, but I’m becoming so aware of how not here I am most of the time. And even when I am here, It is difficult to position myself in a way to respond most appropriately to a situation—–Pause.

My new series will be called Poise, Paws, and Pause. This is a title I came up with while taking my class in Principles and Practices of Mindful Leadership at The Center for Mindful Inquiry. <I think I may sign up for their new class Compassionate Action in Education.>

As a result of this class I installed a Mindfulness Bell on my Android and have it set to go off once an hour. I have noticed that a few times while I was surfing I was very annoyed and turned the bell off. <hyperfocus?!?! Oh, the ADHD paradox> Now, I’ve successfully talked myself into taking a moment to breathe no matter what I am doing.

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Martin Seligman on Positive Psychology


Chaotic Happenings

May 11, 2012

What have I been up to? Well it’s been so long I forgot I even started a post but for your general enjoyment (or not) here is the post I wrote about the holidays……

The Holidays

I’ve noticed the wall of yuck has descended upon me. I felt kind of like this blob but without the pink, yeah my blob was definitely all black.

This is where I have so many negative thoughts it could render me unable to move if I am not careful. So, to fight it I’ve been doing fine motor activities. Scattermom says they activate a different part of your brain. And a different part of my brain needs to be activated. I’ve been sewing and crocheting. Also, kiddo and I are loving to play with clay. Recognizing and using the power I have is profoundly more difficult than complaining about the power I don’t have.

After the holidays I made myself a cozy spot and am still getting ready to transform, just like ‘Big Guy’!

Kiddo and I are housing and feeding several caterpillars because we like them and we hope to watch Big Guy’s chrysalis making and emergence as a butterfly. I was talking about after he/she emerged we would need to let the butterfly go and I went on (and on) explaining about when she grew up…..as a beautiful butterfly, she would want to leave. It’s the kind thing to do to let them go and make their own life. She promptly stated emphatically “That’s not REAL mommy.”

I’ve discovered that my chrysalis includes meditation, karate, and women centered activisim. MomsrisingNC and World Karate Do helped me put together a wonderful program that was held last month. I’m planning on doing some more activisim with MomsRisingNC and doing a little of my own educational activisim here soon.

This summer I will take Literacy for Photography and I think it will rock my world as a writer! Looking forward to some great things. I’m continuing on my mindfulness journey with karate and hope that a Green Belt is on my horizon. Really I am loving the Blue Belt katas and self-defenses!

I’m trying to keep this post in the positive but there are some disturbing things happening out there……the continuation of the Mommy Wars (shame on you Time Magazine), just makes me sick. And the debacle of Amendment One here in NC. Really, I hope it sparks some great networking and projects in NC’s future. I plan to keep pursuing connections with some great activists in the Raleigh-Durham area.

Taking this quote from my pastor’s facebook feed

“Do not depend on the hope of results…you may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results, but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself…You gradually struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people…In the end, it is the reality of personal relationship that saves everything.” ~quotation from Thomas Merton


Buckets

December 1, 2011

Our family enjoyed A Guide to Daily Happiness for Kids. (picture above) It was a useful reminder to the whole family that we must build each other up or “fill buckets” because that is part of the changes we’d like see in our society.  I made up a bedtime story that mentioned buckets and I explained the Occupy Movement in terms she would understand. I mentioned this to one protester and she suggested that I write it. I added it to my list.

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Daisy Deadhead suggested that I do a piece like hers on ‘the voices in my head or my spiritual side’, so I did. She called hers Deity Meeting Part 1. Here it is, entirely unedited.

Spiritual Chaos

Setting:

Main Characters:
Mary- Mother of Jesus
Gaia
Mary Magdalene (MM)
Thomas (Doubting)
Wisdom(spirit of Jesus, shethelor)
Buddah
Rose Winslow

Minor Character(s):

Grizzy The Ferret
Ripple Blanket/Rug

Buddah: Please everyone get a cushion from the corner and gather in a circle around the rug. (the crowd settles in) Let us open this meeting with ten full breaths of meditation.

Thomas: But Buddah we are missing Gaia.

Buddah: Shall we meditate until she arrives and then take our ten breaths.

Rose: That would be a good idea.

Buddah: Everyone get comfortable.

MM: Gaia is always late.

Blessed Mother: She is a busy Goddess, please have some patience.

Thomas: We could be meditating for a half hour.

Blessed Mother: Thomas, she said Grizzy had a cold so she would be running a bit behind.

Thomas: I wish she would leave those horrid creatures behind.

Buddah: Looks at Thomas gently and shushes him quietly.
Thomas reluctantly closes his eyes with a sigh.

Fifteen minutes pass and Gaia enters.

Buddah’s eyes open and he welcomes her to the meeting and invites her for one minute of meditation.

The group hears a small jingling bell.

Thomas: (Mumbling) ……you didn’t bring one of those stinky ferrets again did you?

Rose and the blessed mother shift in their seats. After a minute Buddah thanks everyone for their meditation. Gaia opens the meeting. Grizzy jumps in her lap with a jingle.

Gaia: Today we are meeting to discuss demands. It has been brought to our attention that these are not working. We must go about things in a more gentle fashion.

MM: That must be why she is reading Verbal Judo. So far the plan is working. I say we keep up the good work.

Thomas: I disagree, I think we need to take a hard line with demands and put them in writing before this meeting is over.

Grizzy The Ferret: (Runs right over to Thomas and jumps on his foot, nosing it)  Put a sock in it Thomas or I’ll bite your ankle!

Blessed Mother: Grizzy that’s not appropriate. One more outburst like that and you are banned from eating rasins for eternity.

Grizzy The Ferret whimpers and jingle noises are heard all the way to Gaia’s lap.

Rose: We are a leaderful and nonviolent movement. We have to give J time to reread and outline Verbal Judo in order for it to be more effective. Thomas, look at this as an exercise in patience.

Thomas gets up and paces the room while mumbling and making hand gestures.

Rose: Blessed Mother, will you give us an update on the controversial Holiday Plans?

Blessed Mother: So far the kiddo’s birthday was good. It was low key and she complained a little about the lack of a large crowd but a good time was had. For a bonus there was a kitty cake. And going to the cousins house for a sleepover and Thanksgiving Dinner was an appropriate addition for the birthday. Kiddo has requested a big Christmas tree.

Thomas interrupts: This is where we need to take a hard line. We should and will have a Christmas tree.

Gaia: Everyone knows how I feel about cutting down a tree and sticking it indoors to die a slow death. I’d like to see if we could get a larger live tree we could plant somewhere after the holidays.

Wisdom: It is MY supposed birthday, as well as Winter Solstice. I think I should be able to decide. This matter needs to be tabled until the next meeting. Can we agree on that much?

“Yes” is heard all around the circle.

Wisdom: Blessed Mother please continue with your update.

Blessed Mother: The loft bed may be delayed until after Christmas due to the 6 to 8 weeks of shipping time. What about the addition of the slide?

Thomas: We can’t do anything until we get the bed but the slide looks like it might be a go. There’s a definite fun factor with an indoor slide. Kiddo should be excited. She will forget about the Holiday nonsense if she gets a slide. Temperature check on the indoor slide.

All fingers in the circle are wiggling in up position.

Thomas: Great! Meeting adjourned….

Buddah: Wait a minute. Let us pause and each find something to be grateful for.

MM: Please don’t make us share it this time. Remember what happened last time?

Gaia: We can do an optional share. Except for Grizzy the Ferret. He needs to share something he is grateful for.

Grizzy The Ferret: I’m thankful that for all eternity I have the freedom to talk and go wherever I wish. I don’t need no stinking cage!

Gaia: Wonderful Grizzy! I’m thankful that J got so excited about Toilet Paper being 40% post consumer recyclable paper! And for the years J did not cut a tree down for the holidays.

Buddah: Anyone else? Rose?

Rose: I’m thankful that J is studying to go back to school and/ or work.

Buddah: May we all discover and appreciate the opportunities we have!


FTY: Happy Birthday to Me!

September 22, 2011

Some projects I’ve been contemplating and/or working on in FTY: Warrior Spirit that I have finished…(I am celebrating ME today!)

I got my red stripe!

This means I am getting ready to test for my Gold belt!

And I finally made a simple dress for the kiddo! I decided to buy a pattern instead of doing the wrap dress because it was a bit too small. This pattern only cost $2.99. And I have plans to make it out of a $2.99 purple sheet I bought at Goodwill. In the picture, the ruffle came from a sheet I found at a rave over ten years ago and the rest of the dress fabric I bought at Joanne’s.

kiddo's kitteh dress

Quick add/edit: Check out these signs the police took from the protesters occupying wallstreet


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