Right now, I am feeling the bee sting and I want to back away from the computer. Honey Badger tenacity should be easier to conjure. Somehow, I did conjur one bad honey badger mama to sit for the GRE. As usual, verbal was well above average. I can’t believe I got a 5 out of 6 on the Analytical writing portion. What?! Math, as expected was below average several percentiles. And, that undergraduate gpa–always below THE minimum. I’m just not sure I can compete with applicants who haven’t had the AlpHaBeT soup of undiagnosed “disabilities” during their undergraduate careers. I know *crymeariver*, Honey Badger don’t give a &^&%^5; while, I still feel the need to say “Why can’t we all just get along?”. Chaos doesn’t fit in a box. The creativity cannot be contained.
Well, my photos are a whole year backed up in my drop box setting. Ok, so some of them are over a year old. So, I struggled and downloaded to get these pics. I’ve never used the gallery before so let us see how it works. My family has been having fun digging in the dirt and relaxing in the backyard.
Kiddo relaxed and played her way through spring break. It was good not to have the pressures of school. Grandma came to visit and also had a relaxing time. Today we are all back to regularly scheduled programming. After taking my mom to the airport and saying a heartfelt goodbye, I was feeling a bit down and I remember I wanted to peruse the garden department at Lowe’s.
I strolled the aisles of springy plants, sniffing the flowers and dreaming of sprucing up our nest. I priced plants and other materials to make a Rain Gutter Sub-Irrigated Planter System.
Kiddo and I thought she forgot her homework at school so we had a backyard gardening kitty playdate. Marble also got to chase bugs. We also got to see him climb a few steps up the trunk of a tree.
During our exploration of the backyard I joyfully noticed tiny baby buds popping from brown tree branches. Wayward baby trees plant themselves in my garden. Last year instead of killing the baby tree I thought I’d replant it. A week ago I thought it was dead.
Last week kiddo and I made laundry detergent and washing soda together. DH accused me of trying to kill them because the smell from heating baking soda was quite strong. I probably needed to turn the fans on in the house. I did have the windows open. Here is the recipe I used from Sweeter Lemon.
- 3 cups of Borax
- 3 cups of Arm & Hammer Super Washing Powder
- 1 cup of OxiClean Powder (optional)
- 1 bar of Fels-Naptha soap, grated like shredded cheese (do not eat)
Mix together in a large container. Use approximately 1 tablespoon per load. You may need to experiment if your water is hard/soft.
I might try liquid detergent next. Here is one recipe I found on budget101.com. I believe you can use just about any bar of soap you like in either of these recipes. Here’s a video on how you make your own washing soda.
And finally something else to make you say hmmmmm…..slow tv via Norway
http://www.nrk.no/piipshow/ —–Live slow tv and the page is translated into English
Following Scattermom’s How to Laugh at Yourself series beginning, I thought I would write a post just like that. Next, I thought of the mess that was my last ‘laugh at yourself’ moment; it was also a ‘if I don’t laugh, I will cry’ moment. <punctuation is hard> Luckily, it was followed by a rather cleansing laugh at yourself moment…which was me wishing my dad Happy Birthday on Father’s Day! Oh, it was memorable. Later he called to make plans for our trip and I got to wish him Happy Birthday again! Plans, are hard to make for the technologically and memory challenged.
My laugh at myself moments are becoming overwhelmingly glaring. And, I have been skipping some meditation times. I keep telling myself it is because of the summer schedule, but I’m becoming so aware of how not here I am most of the time. And even when I am here, It is difficult to position myself in a way to respond most appropriately to a situation—–Pause.
My new series will be called Poise, Paws, and Pause. This is a title I came up with while taking my class in Principles and Practices of Mindful Leadership at The Center for Mindful Inquiry. <I think I may sign up for their new class Compassionate Action in Education.>
As a result of this class I installed a Mindfulness Bell on my Android and have it set to go off once an hour. I have noticed that a few times while I was surfing I was very annoyed and turned the bell off. <hyperfocus?!?! Oh, the ADHD paradox> Now, I’ve successfully talked myself into taking a moment to breathe no matter what I am doing.
Martin Seligman on Positive Psychology
What have I been up to? Well it’s been so long I forgot I even started a post but for your general enjoyment (or not) here is the post I wrote about the holidays……
I’ve noticed the wall of yuck has descended upon me. I felt kind of like this blob but without the pink, yeah my blob was definitely all black.
This is where I have so many negative thoughts it could render me unable to move if I am not careful. So, to fight it I’ve been doing fine motor activities. Scattermom says they activate a different part of your brain. And a different part of my brain needs to be activated. I’ve been sewing and crocheting. Also, kiddo and I are loving to play with clay. Recognizing and using the power I have is profoundly more difficult than complaining about the power I don’t have.
After the holidays I made myself a cozy spot and am still getting ready to transform, just like ‘Big Guy’!
Kiddo and I are housing and feeding several caterpillars because we like them and we hope to watch Big Guy’s chrysalis making and emergence as a butterfly. I was talking about after he/she emerged we would need to let the butterfly go and I went on (and on) explaining about when she grew up…..as a beautiful butterfly, she would want to leave. It’s the kind thing to do to let them go and make their own life. She promptly stated emphatically “That’s not REAL mommy.”
I’ve discovered that my chrysalis includes meditation, karate, and women centered activisim. MomsrisingNC and World Karate Do helped me put together a wonderful program that was held last month. I’m planning on doing some more activisim with MomsRisingNC and doing a little of my own educational activisim here soon.
This summer I will take Literacy for Photography and I think it will rock my world as a writer! Looking forward to some great things. I’m continuing on my mindfulness journey with karate and hope that a Green Belt is on my horizon. Really I am loving the Blue Belt katas and self-defenses!
I’m trying to keep this post in the positive but there are some disturbing things happening out there……the continuation of the Mommy Wars (shame on you Time Magazine), just makes me sick. And the debacle of Amendment One here in NC. Really, I hope it sparks some great networking and projects in NC’s future. I plan to keep pursuing connections with some great activists in the Raleigh-Durham area.
Taking this quote from my pastor’s facebook feed
“Do not depend on the hope of results…you may have to face the fact that your work will be apparently worthless and even achieve no result at all, if not perhaps results opposite to what you expect. As you get used to this idea, you start more and more to concentrate not on the results, but on the value, the rightness, the truth of the work itself…You gradually struggle less and less for an idea and more and more for specific people…In the end, it is the reality of personal relationship that saves everything.” ~quotation from Thomas Merton