About six years ago I got Meditation for Dummies out of the library. I scanned and read some of the title headings and chapters, then returned it pretty promptly. I recall telling my husband I needed to take a class on Meditation. Low and behold NPR started advertising Duke’s Mindfulness Based Stress Reduction Program, considering how many times I listened to the advertisement it finally sunk that I might need to check that class out.
I woke up this morning at 5 am to a thrumming and throbbing in my head, due to my lack of chocolate/ caffeine. Apparently 2-6 quarter size pieces of dark chocolate per day are enough to get me addicted physically. Doh! I’ve really been trying to meditate without my mp3’s from the class at Duke. My thought spin cycle activates and I am a goner. I went back to the Kadampa Center to take their Discovering Buddhisim with my friend. If I get really brave I will use/borrow some amusing characterizations to illustrate certain thought cycles. One I am sure to explore is the crazy/good neighbor motif. Yep, I play that role.
Back to meditation. I did survive a day long (9-4) meditation or day of mindfulness. Attempting to be mindful for that entire day was an awesome accomplishment. Towards the end I really was fatigued and my ADHD tendencies came to plague me. The thought spin cycle that my mind really loves was ‘done’ with mindfulness for the day, so the last couple of hours were the hardest. Moments of peaceful, calmness are possible in my ADHD-ish brain.